no white flag

Song of the Moment: You and I Both, Jason Mraz
To Do (tasks, not people): fix colors for blog
Current State: holiday-ish
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this is a piecemeal reorientation. the most obvious elements have been set months ago, with the new look and the colors, etc. but this time, it's the very name of the blog that has to go.

for a while, the peregrine was a fine attribution. "wandering, wondering, wanting to plant my feet in alien land" was how i originally described my blog. an old, old, old version can be found here. that was fine when i was younger and didn't know what i wanted to do and where i wanted to go.

but it's a new phase in my life. i have an image of where i want to head and what i want to do with the rest of my life (and no, higher education is not THE only consideration in this). the past few years of blogging can now be summed up and consolidated into a new catchphrase, a new mantra.

i am the captain of my ship. no one can take away what i have unless i let them. my happiness does not have to depend on anyone else. standing on our own is the ONLY lesson in life we have to learn and everything else follows.

and with that, dido's 'white flag' could best sum up my blog's new name. "No White Flag". this is my life, and there should be no reason to surrender it to anyone else's wishes. in other words, hindi ako susuko. problema man yan sa pamilya sa trabaho... o sa puso.

as for the new URL, it's from seal's song. it's not morbid if you really know the song. it's about growing up, rising from all the defeats of the past. in prayer there is contemplation, things die, everything fades away. but what stays true, what stays real is what is in one's heart. thus, dying prayer it is.

i know it will cause havoc on friends who have me on their links but it's just my way of imploring you to take a part in my growth. pompous? not really, i hope. growing up also means that i've realized taht while mistakes may come around in cycles, the circle doesn't always have to stay that big.